Navigating the Challenges of Early Career Burnout: A First-Year Associate’s Perspective

As a first-year associate at a Big Four tax firm, the end of my inaugural year is rapidly approaching in July, and I find myself wrapped in a blanket of uncertainty and emotional overwhelm. Currently working from home, I often experience moments where the weight of my responsibilities feels insurmountable, leading to tears and a sense of isolation.

In my office, I once shared this journey with four fellow new associates. However, I now stand alone, as others have either shifted to different departments or faced layoffs. My workload is daunting; through the end of November, I’m slated for more than 40 hours a week, with many weeks extending well beyond that—some creeping toward 80 hours. The recent notification about my assignment to two additional clients without an updated schedule only adds to my anxiety.

Compounding the stress from my professional life is the pressure of the CPA exams. On Monday, I will sit for the Audit section for the fourth time. Despite my diligent preparation, my recent score on the Financial Accounting and Reporting (FAR) exam was demoralizing—I noted a staggering 17-point drop from my last attempt, contradicting my belief that I had performed better this round.

These cumulative pressures are beginning to take a toll on my mental health and well-being. I’m exhausted and apprehensive about the upcoming months, which I can only predict will be rife with challenges. Yet, a part of me struggles with the fear of being perceived as someone who couldn’t reach senior status, especially given the current state of the job market, which feels particularly hostile.

In this moment of despair, I find myself questioning whether a career in Accounting is still the right fit for me. The uncertainty weighs heavily on my mind, and I know I’m not alone in grappling with these feelings—many young professionals navigate the daunting waters of early career burnout, especially in high-pressure industries like Accounting.

To anyone else experiencing similar struggles, remember: it’s crucial to seek support, whether through professional counseling, peer networks, or personal connections. While the road ahead may seem bleak, taking proactive steps to manage stress and reassess long-term goals can lead to clarity and renewed motivation. You are not defined by your title or exam scores—you are more than your achievements. Embrace the journey, however tumultuous it may feel.