Reflecting on My Upcoming CPA Exam: A Rollercoaster Journey

As I sit here just two days away from my upcoming CPA exam, I find myself in a whirlwind of emotions—excited yet anxious, hopeful yet apprehensive. This will be my third attempt at this challenging milestone, and I can’t help but reflect on my past experiences.

A Journey of Trials

Attempt #1: I managed to pass the first day, which felt like a significant milestone. However, I stumbled on Day 2 and Day 3 by failing to achieve Level 1 Sufficiency, ending up with a level 7.

Attempt #2: Once again, I faced disappointment by missing Level 1 Sufficiency, with my performance landing at level 2. For this attempt, I relied on resources from Densmore and hoped for better results.

Attempt #3: Here I am now, about to embark on my third attempt—who knows what will happen this time?

The Weight of Expectations

There’s a part of me that just wants to put this ordeal behind me, whether I pass or fail. After this attempt, I yearn for the freedom that comes with closing this chapter of my life. If I succeed, I’ll certainly feel a sense of achievement worth celebrating. However, I acknowledge that my motivation is somewhat skewed; it’s more about proving my capability to myself rather than a deep respect for the CPA designation.

In all honesty, I’ve come to view the CPA as merely a gateway to better job opportunities rather than an emblem of professional excellence. After witnessing how the designation has been managed, especially since the amalgamation, I can’t help but feel disillusioned. The exam process seems less about preparing effective CPAs and more about testing one’s aptitude for—ironically—testing itself.

Considering Alternatives

Should I not pass again, I know the disappointment will linger, especially in the eyes of friends and family. However, I also realize that there are other paths available, such as pursuing an MBA or a different master’s degree. Life doesn’t end with the CPA; it continues to evolve.

Ultimately, I find myself exhausted by the process. While I tolerate my work as a CPA, I can’t say that I enjoy it. It often feels mundane, leaving me yearning for more meaningful engagement in my career.

Final Thoughts

As I approach this significant point in my journey, I know that regardless of the outcome, I’m determined